dougyblow:

The idea of support in regards to mental illness is a joke.

“Who are your supports dear?”

“There’s the woman I pay every week to listen to my crap.”

“What about your family?”

“They like it when I pretend I’m happy.”

“Do you have some friends?”

“There’s this girl. She lives in Connecticut and we are considering having cyber children. I spend most of my time alone on the Internet.”

yeah. we are going to have cyber children… they are going to be awesome. 

I found this lamp today at Home Goods. It was on clearance for $10!!! I really needed a cute lamp for next to my bed and this was perfect! I am going to replace the shade because green does not really work with my colors. But I am super excited! I also got a really cute hamper :)

The last thing I want to do right now is be around all these graduated people. I am really happy for all my friends but it is a constant reminder of where I am not. Not only am I on the “normal” school timeline but also that I am no longer at Northeastern and will never graduate a Husky. But instead I get to go to my friend’s graduation party, who has a way of making me feel so useless. And it is not like I can bring it up to her because it is her graduation and even if she was the kinda person that was not an asshole to anything that is not about her, I still would not want to ruin her graduation. But really… I just want everyone to let me stay in bed and cry until this graduation business is over. 

woke up, went to the NAMI walk with my internship, stood around while everyone took our stuff and didn’t listen about our studies, came home, ate lunch and drank a piña colada, put together the kitchen table with my mama, and now I am lying down before I have to go to a graduation party tonight that I DO NOT want to go to.